Message 6

Wa Alaikom Assalam Wa Rahmatu Allah Wa Barakatuh
I find agony in my heart ...severe agony, how could I be an enemy to the most righteous people and back-bite them. I swear that I was ready to assassinate one of them.  
Can you imagine me if I did so?
I will answer your questions and I hope if you want to publish them do not show my e-mail or my address
First, these ideas I do not know what to say about them!! They are from many sources but most of them are from the forum and the web sites.
Second, lessons! Dear Sheikh you know that I used to see the criminal sheikhs. How could I attend their lessons? I ask Allah for forgiveness! 
Third, what attracted me is your way in Da‘wah.
Fourth, I should blame my family. They are really the reason of my deviation from the right path. In the beginning of my religious way they closed all the good doors until I reached those who taught the ideas you know.
I hope to have more meetings with you